WHY???

WHY?...

Since my mother gave birth to me and my parents took care of me until now, there are so many things thatchanged over my thirteen(13) years of existence. Also happening to me that i hate and I sometimes i want to know why is this happening to me? Why? Do you know why?
They say that is normal for a person especially a growing and developing child to keep on asking about the things they want to know. With their questions, it just shows that they're minds are functioning and is also developing. Some say that with the attitude of the child that keeps on asking things is only shows the curiosity of the kid. They say that curiosity leads to a wider knowledge and it may develop when they grow up and they would give interests on things in advance than any ordinary child. Until now, I still keep on asking about things that i hate so much and have i came up to this situation. Such things that always bothers me like why am I poor instead of living as a rich? Why can't I get the topmost of everything? Why can't I get a perfect score in chapter tests, quizzes, seatworks? Why am I not that kind enough to people especially to my friends not like Chanel? Why do people hate me and always teach and insult me? Why do they gossip about me? Why didn't I gave my best shot when I was in elementary? Why i am always late in classes? Why didn't I performed well in class during the first days in UP as a freshie?why am I always scolded by my mother all the time? Why am I not good to others? Maybe because they hate me. Why am I not good looking like the others? Why do I spent money in the Internet to nonsense things like friendster? Why do I have enemies and why should I love them if they make me mad?
There are many more things that I hate and sometimes I wish that I was born by a famous person and now live in a beautiful hose and studying in a private school but it was must a wish for I also hate to come true. These are the questions that bothers me all the time and I am always begging for answers who is expert enough to provide the right answers for me. I don;t know why it happened to me and why God gave it to me and I don't know for what reasons. Sometimes i always ask to myself that why there are better people then me but I am sure that there are no people who is perfect for God did not made a perfect person. With all of these questions which all started with WHY then with a (?)-question mark, it does reflect my attitude toward myself, to other people and to the things that surrounds me. With all of my questions, it show my attitude of discontentment in my life because there are also things I want to have just because people have it. I also got envy to my classmates because they have different and unique abilities that I don't have but I also believe that there are also things I have that others don't have for every person has its own special ability and skills.
All of these things reflect my attitude and I know that after you read these , you would think that I'm greedy but I'm not, I'm just wondering why things are just like that. I'm not a bad person as what you think because you better know me first before you judge my personality. I admit that I am a person who is discontented of the things but I will try my best to change this kind of attitude and instead of questioning things, I will more be thankful of the things that God has blessed me.